My real world

So thankful that I developed this habit of reading books. Gives me immense pleasure every time I read a book.  Not to mention that it takes my mind away from all the disgust, hurt, pain I feel in my every day life. Love to get lost in that world of fantasy sometimes or most of the times. It's a great escape from all the crazy things that keep happening in my life. Wish most of the characters in my real life could be replaced with some of those fascinating fictional characters. As unrealistic as it seems I would love to live in that fairytale world rather than this real world that is full of selfishness, foolishness, hatred, fake people, fake love. Lately books have become my single entertaining element. Great company and a friend during the time of crisis. So happy that reading uplifts my mind and pulls me out of my pain n misery any time of the day or night. A good book is all I need!

Life needs an undo button

I am not the same person I used to be. The best days of my life have gone by. And I am not quite sure if they would ever return. Right now when I look at myself in the mirror all I see is hatred, fear, confusion, distress, pain, loss, unhappiness, disappointment, anger and much more... I see a complete stranger staring at me praying for a miracle to happen that would bring back life, happiness, pride, and a sense of accomplishment into it. That was the face I so dearly loved sometime back which somehow got lost in time.

Life doesn't always offer what you want. Does it?

There was a time when I was so happy to be in love and being loved. It's not the same feeling anymore. Things aren't always the way they are supposed to be. I have learned it the hard way. I have taken bad decisions and I have been wrong about a lot of things. Yes! I wish there was an undo button. I would undo everything in a jiffy without even giving it a second thought. But of course, there's no such undo button. You just have to learn to forgive or forget and move on and not loose hope that things will change and to play your part in bringing that change. And I am willing to do just that and most of all I am hoping to bring back the happy face that somehow got lost in time.

Here I am!

After an era spent with the thought of starting a blog, ages spent with the lack of confidence, eon's spent with the resistance to use my brain to do the process of turning all of my thoughts into words and phrases, and finally after overcoming the laziness that could beat a sloth, here I am!

Lately, I have been reading way too many blogs, some good, some not so good and some really awesome ones. I am just fascinated at how people find the time and patience to sit down and type in their experiences and thoughts so openly and intriguingly.